Thanks for always being there for me when i'm feeling at the lowest.

:)

What now.

WHAT NOW?

:(

Met up with Bee, Yin and Brian for pizza hut just now, with dear of course! Khoon and ahem, Elaine, his gf for around ONE YEAR (which he only tell us like, few days ago? TSK!) joined us too! Went Pasar Malam and tried their shooting games. Khoon won a mario for Elaine! :D

Popped by Cotton On. Jayden was there and rain looked so tanned! She went for fabulous tan btw and look damn shuai now. Right rain? :D They waited for Shir to finish racking up whereas dear and i left for supper with his family. As his elder brother is in hostel, we drove in NTU to fetch him... I turned and looked at kelvin. Immediately he knew, clutching our hands tight. Driving past the route which i took for the two weeks was a torture. Thinking back how heavy was my every footsteps and how terrible i felt rushing for disgusting modules.

Well, i'm so damn glad i've withdrawed. After i knew that a friend's friend of mine quitted/drop out from an engineering programme after 2 and a half years and transfer to SIM. Crazy or what. And till i started flipping through classified, only to realised how disgusting an engineering job can be.

When we reached the hostel area, he's dad said this to me, " This hostel looks not bad, you can stay here." Apparently, his dad don't know i've withdrawed from NTU, except his mum and aunt which i've told them earlier on. So, i've to explain to him again. Sigh*

Ok. Working later at 9am. And our yearly event, fireworks with my girlfriends and boyfriends!

Excited! :)

One of the silly picture we took during Bee's Day! Tak Glam but

i LOVE it!

I'm feeling so much better now.

Plus, my dear Candy is back from China!

(Too bad you missed the Olympics fever over there. HAHA!)

And i'm going school jogging tomorrow morning, with her!

:)

'To withdraw or not to withdraw'

After numerous breakdown, i've decided.

Bye NTU(for now), Hi working life.

I know its a waste, but i just have to make the best decision somehow or rather.

2 weeks in NTU, i swear its the lowest point of my life. The modules just drive me nuts although some have been taught before, which i think i've threw back to my lecturers already. HAH. I'm totally lost and yes, i can't cope. I don't want to waste my time and ahem, dad's money to "TRY" one semester, which everyone encourage me to. Yes, i know, the "you never know till you've tried" definitely comes to your mind aye? But, so what if i can crap through this semester with a merely pass? I will certainly struggle later on and thus, leading to more breakdowns. Then they'll tell me, "force yourself, work harder lah?". Sorry, i can't force myself to do something i dont like anymore. Then I guess, letting go this chance is the best choice.

I told my parents about it and surprisingly, they said they'll support (including my bro)whatever decision i made and most importantly, i must live with happiness and not to stress myself unecessarily(Thats exactly what my dad messaged me. Plus, he even quoted a line from Confucious!) However, deep down inside, i'm sure they wish i could continue. Hey, which parents don't want their children to get a degree, to have a better future? Upon seeing me so stress, i think they don't want to put anymore stress on me anymore.

I will take this period to work and touch up on my portfolio, hoping for the best i can get into Fine Arts next year.

Bye pdi ppl i've spend my 2 weeks with, I will miss you guys! Especially Aliyah. Huili, Jamie and Hui min. Hope for the best in the future! :)

Some others are Pei Xia, Jacquelyn, Elaine, Xinni etc.

I'm very relieved.

Breakdown.

Second day of school...

Thinking that this time i will reach on time if i take the bus from interchange..

After i took bus 172 to boon lay interchange, i need to change bus right?

Unfortunately enough, i TOOK THE WRONG BUS.

Instead of taking bus 179, i ran and boarded bus 199, unknowingly. Was pretty happy that i manage to catch the bus somemore. Till i sat down and turned to look at the back of the bus, i saw bus 179. That hits me that i suppose to take that, not this! It was too late to even press the bell and so, i decided to skip the first lesson. Thinking that there will be video posted online and plus, bus 199 will take me to my NEXT lesson at 9.30am anyway.

Its only the second day of school and i'm already skipping lecture.

TSKTSKTSK.

Hopefully i can go to school in peace tomorrow.

First day of school...

Can you believe i sat on the floor for my first class?

3 years in poly, never did i sit on the floor for lesson before!

Four 199 double deck buses, packed with students on the first level but empty ontop, drove past just outside the school's bus stop without stopping.

After going the wrong ways and all, i was late for 15mins and by the time i went in the theatre, its was already full and some students were already sitting on the floor. Called Aliyah and spotted her. But what to do, i joined the guys to sit at the back! Sheesh.

Damn i'm so gonna take the bus from interchange instead.

School is starting like what.... tomorrow?

Damn.

And thus, here i announce the start of my.....

DIET.

ROARRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!

I have never fall sick in my entire poly life (I don't remember taking MC. Plus, who needs an MC to pon school anyway? lol. ) and now,

i'm sick.

Been feeling very nausea and feverish for the pass few days and my stomach finally gave way yesturday.

I woke up from my sleep to ahem, rush to toilet, three times in the middle of the night. I remembered very clearly it was 2.50am, 5.15am and 10.40am respectively. Its like... fully melted chendol (yes, i just have to add in the colour. HEHE). Without all those beans and jelly that is. HAHA. Okok. Nuff' said.

The doctor said it might be the food i consumed the day before. I attended the freshmen's welcome ceremony for college of engineering. It might be either the refreshment they served or the dinner my mom made. As i mentioned, I was already feeling nausea, i headed home, bathed and off i sleep all the way till 9pm+. By the time i ate my food, it was already cold. I was lazy to heat them up plus i have no appetite at all. So, the doc say it will be either because the refreshment was prepared one day before, so they are not fresh or the food my mom place on the table which high chances they have been contaminated with bacteria. I guess stress also contribute to my sickness.

Shrugs.

I even gey kiang and went to work this morning. Not feeling very good either, i went to the toliet twice. :( And tomorrow i'm going kumon to work from 9am to 4pm. Hopefully i won't faint infront of the kids.

School is starting on Monday. I can't believe it. I don't even understand the timetable can. Yeap, and my table is STILL messy, WAY mess-ier than before. Back to the college of engineering welcome ceremony, i bumped into my primary school friend, ivy. Surprisingly, she's in ME, mainstream as well! :) After much catching up, we realise both our bfs are in camp too. We even decided to attend their POP together on the 9th of Sept. Heh. Oh, did i mention she lives in the same block as me? :D But, all these won't cover the stress i'm feeling now that school is starting soon. You can do it, CHING!


On a lighter note, he's coming back tomorrow at 3pm! As he done pretty well at he's Napfa inside, he gets to book out early. Sorry dear, will find you straight after work! :) I shall end this entry by blogging about the 5month surprise i gave him previously on his first bookout.

Supposingly, i thought i will be taking their car together to fetch him at 5pm+. So, i messaged his little brother the day before that i'm gonna plan a surprise for him. After i bought the necessary stuffs, i headed to his house. I messaged his mother to ask if i can go up the house, you know lah, courtesy. She welcomed me and say his first aunt is at home. It was around 4pm when i reach. Panicked, i quickly prepare the surprise. Only get to know from his aunt that his father and lil bro will be fetching him instead, without me. So, i took my own sweet time to prepare my surprise.

I was already done by 5pm. Watched tv till i almost fell asleep. He messaged me, asking what i'm doing. I decided to grab the chance, by giving him a bigger surprise, i said i was at home, watching tv and sounded unconcern that i'm not fetching him. I even messaged his lil bro to keep it from him. He's sad enough that his dad was way late because of the traffic and now, knowing i was not meeting him, soon he hung up the phone and messaged me instead.

It was already almost 9pm. Finally, i heard footsteps at the corridor, he looked through his house's window and was shocked. He look pretty much the same. :) His lil brother went to his room straight and asked me. "wheres the surprise?" I was like. "No ah." He replied, "cheh. I thought got surprise." He almost spoiled my plan. LOL.

When he opened the cupboard, i was 'watching' the tv, waiting for his reaction. He stood there for very long. Thus, i went in. Dramatic? Oh wells. :)

Happy 5 months dear!