I think i'm on the verge of breaking down now.

I can't get into design stream for Mae. Triple sad-ness. I'll be in main stream of mechanical engineering. I don't know if i will survive in there for three years. Kinda regret that i didn't do my portfolio to send in for school of Art,Design & Media. Instead, rushing for my long dued projects and assignments. I don't think i have good portfolio to send in either and has no time and lazy to do the essay and video so to speak.

Now, I felt even worst when i get to know that one of my coursemate put ME as last choice and got in. She decided to withdraw though. I, with a low average GPA of 3.3, i won't be surprise if i couldn't get into any Uni. However, i was asked for an interview (I'm the only girl during the interview) and surprisingly got through which i didn't expect i will. I should be happy, right?

Actually come to think of it, i really don't know what i want in my life. I still want to continue doing something with engineering but yet, design as well, as engineering has a very wide job opportunities etc. I would be lying if i said i LOVE doing engineering. For the Cert? For the passion? Can i just get married to a old, filthy rich guy and be a tai tai forever? Yah, provided i get a surgery done first. Ok, kidding.

I just emailed them asking whether appealing is available for applying design stream. Should i just withdraw and try again next year? Or should i just close my eyes and take the chance i'm presented with. I think i will have much more competitive applicants (by seeing how powerful our batch 2 of PDI) choosing respective degrees which resulting lower chances of me getting in and end up can't get into any Uni in the end. Plus, school is already starting in a week or so, can i still withdraw?

I'm lost.

Very lost.

Can i just die now?

I miss this boy manymanymanymanyMANY.

Done my hair today!

This is the second time a hairdresser praised my DIY hair colour.

Damn i'm so proud of myself. :x Eh, must give some credits to Candy too. Hehs!

Gonna bake something real soon too.

I'm totally into searching lovely recipes online nowadays!

Tell you a secret.....

I can actually sit on my bed with pyjamas on, laptop on my lap while reading recipes for hours before i sleep!

TEEHEE.

Ugh, I'm so lazy to blog!

Dear in BMT camp now.

Misses.

He'll only be back on the 25th noon. =(

Still surviving in Cotton On and Kumon.

Gonna do something to my hair soon, again.

Not a bit excited for school to start.

And my table is STILL very messy.

YAWNS.

Out of the blue, i checked my hotmail today. Among my 400+ mails, other then being flooded by facebook and friendster emails, i came across this very meaningful and touching email about the 5.12 Earthquake in China. Coco Wang, the author, shared real touching rescue stories by illustrating comics strips which made me tear. If not for her contributions, i wouldn't have even bother to read the newspaper or watch the news to get to know these touching stories. So, here i am, sharing them with you guys...

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Thank you Coco Wang for your work, i'm truely touched.

Strawberry Jellyheart!

The base.

The filling! Mmmmm~ Cheese, my favourite! :)

My very first time using beater and bits of mixture end up flying all over the place. The floor, table, everywhere!

Decorate it with strawberries. These are for my family and myself.

Melt jello crystals for the topping.

Done. Pretty, pretty. :)

For him and family.

May not look as appealing as the ones at this website, where i get the recipe from, but it still taste SUPERB! :)

He started eating even before i can take a nice picture of it.

CHOMP!